I’m starting to like combined cellgroup sessions.
Today’s session was led by Winston and the topic we discussed on one of the seven spiritual deadly sins - Sloth. It’s funny how every time that word comes up an image of that animal pops up too.
The bible verses covered were so literature-like that if I were to quote them to you, you wouldn’t even guess it’s from the bible. Quite a bit of imagery and metaphors were used and I guess that’s how God speaks to us, straight to our very own hearts. The way Winston broke down the verses for us into bite-size parts was absolutely captivating because all the thought processes that went into it were succinct. There were definitely doubts cleared in the process of studying the aspect of Sloth, and how it’s actually more of a vice than a sin. It was pretty scary actually when I reflected about how my life so far kind of resembled a bit of the sluggard mentioned in Proverbs 24. Sluggard does not necessarily mean the person is lazy, but he/she can also be busy but in the end, he/she ends up nowhere. That struck me the most because we can be so caught up with our daily activities, busy doing this and that, but at the end, it’s just an empty void which we keep on filling up and it fades away time and time again.
I’ve always wanted to put my old self away and begin on a new page but it’s so hard to start. I can’t seem to be able to find that motivation to do so. All those talk about quiet time, spending time alone with God just for a short 5 minutes almost came to nothing. A lot of things have been going through my mind ever since the start of this year but I haven’t really been able to surrender them to God totally. Sometimes I even forget that I do have a God that I could pour out my troubles to. It’s so difficult to keep God on your mind for all 7 days a week.
Today’s session really spoke to me, and I felt so strongly that God was reprimanding me in a way today. Because I have asked a couple of times why have I been feeling like this, the monotony of life and a stagnant spiritual life and finally God’s word pierced right through like a sword. It was sort of a gentle warning.
I’m really looking forward to more sessions like this and i’m hoping my fellow cell members do too.